Rites of Recovery

Both research and clinical experience teaches us that recovery from relational wounds, whether from early attachment trauma, abusive relationships, codependent and enmeshed family dynamics, growing up with emotionally immature parents, or experiencing narcissistic abuse, involves what I like to call the Rites of Recovery. 

Not mere tools, but thresholds we move through as we heal, thresholds that, as we cross them, irreversibly change us, moving us forward toward a more expansive version of who we were before, or who we were always meant to be. After moving through these rites, we carry with us a new resilience and resourcefulness that becomes permanently and irrevocably ours.

As we cross the hedge together, venturing into the woods with lanterns in hand, we move through these rites, toward recovery.

Safety

I am safe. This rite teaches us how to create our own safety and how to discern real threat from perceived danger that feels very real.

A nervous system made rigid from chronic survival mode cannot heal with talk therapy alone. Research on polyvagal theory, somatic experiencing, and trauma-informed care all confirm that nervous system flexibility and resilience comes from speaking to to the body in its own language.

We work with breath, grounding, co-regulation, and small rituals that signal safety to your nervous system.

Grief

I can honor what I have lost. For centuries, humans have known that we cannot process grief and loss alone. We have known that we need each other, our senses, touch, movement, and the power of our own wailing voice, to move grief through the body and send it up and out, like an offering to honor what we have lost. We have been cut off from these healing practices.

Research on prolonged grief tells us it isn't optional for healing. Grief that is never given expression doesn't disappear. It waits in the body, showing up later as anxiety, depression, or illness. This is especially true for disenfranchised grief, loss that we aren’t allowed to acknowledge publicly or that isn’t recognized as legitimate.

We honor these losses, whether the childhood you didn't get, the years lost to self-abandonment, the relationships that could never be what you needed, or the life and roles you thought you’d live that never materialized. We honor them by feeling the grief, and through connection, ritual, symbol, and narrative.

Anger

I can embrace my full power. In toxic, enmeshed, or abusive dynamics, staying safe often means denying your own needs and feelings. Even just existing as a separate person can trigger conflict, punishment, or escalation. Staying safe leaves no room for anger, for the part of you that says "this isn’t okay,” and yet, over time, this creates a well of resentment just waiting to overflow, even explode.

Your anger can feel dangerous, unpredictable, overwhelming, even shameful. It can feel fraudulent in the face of the fixer and caretaker you've always been, a risk you can't afford to take that puts your relationships and your safety on the line. It can even trigger flashbacks of the anger others have weaponized against you in the past.

But experts know that anger is the scapegoated emotion. It carries a stigma, especially for women. But, in truth, anger is your noble defender, your mighty protector. It must be expressed, constructively, like every other emotion, for your physical and emotional well-being. And for your recovery.

Together, we learn to open a conversation with your anger from a place of gratitude and curiosity. We befriend it. And we arm you with the tools to hold it without being ruled by it, to let it speak up for you without letting it run the room. When you return from the other side of the hedge, your anger comes back with you, no longer a threat, but a powerful and fiercely loving guardian.

Assertiveness &  Boundaries

I can trust myself. One of the most painful wounds suffered after being trapped in chronic survival mode is losing trust in yourself: in your perceptions, in your ability to make healthy decisions, and in your capacity to know who is safe and who isn't. We find ourselves asking, "How can I finally feel safe when I no longer trust myself or know what's real and what isn't?"

Assertiveness and boundary skills are the rite that leads us to safety, even in an ambiguous world where safety is, truthfully, never guaranteed. Because assertiveness and boundary skills allow us to create a sanctuary within ourselves, one that persists regardless of what hardships or surprises others, or life itself, may throw our way. This is the area of my deepest focus, the place where my training and experience in attachment theory, boundaries, codependency, and polyvagal theory come most directly into practice. We start by learning what healthy relationships and boundaries look like, and what assertiveness is and isn't (hint: it's not control). Then we begin the practice of setting small, approachable boundaries, first with ourselves.

One boundary at a time, you build a home within yourself, not with rigid walls that separate you, but one that empowers you to create what you truly crave: safe, authentic connections.

Radical Self-Expression

It is safe to just be…and to be fully me. Toxic dynamics require you to show up in a way that affirms the identity and soothes the emotional whims of the abusive or enmeshed people in your life. We do this by shrinking, performing, fawning. In these relationships you don't have permission to just be your imperfect self, to have your own preferences, quirks, moods, or needs. You aren't allowed to set down hypervigilance and finally rest, or to just simply be.

Because of this, so many in recovery from relational wounds ache for the peace and freedom from being perceived that only isolation can give. Others struggle with burnout, or aren't sure who they are underneath the role of relationship manager. We look at people whose lives are full of joy, adventure, new endeavors, connection, and passion, and wonder, “Why can't I be so free? So fully myself?” Because being you, and being seen for who you really are, hasn't been possible or safe. Not yet.

Attachment theory tells us this began as adaptation, not deficiency. When love was conditional, you learned to trade authenticity for safety, because at the time, that trade kept you close to the people you needed. Polyvagal theory tells us the pattern isn't a character flaw either. Fawning is the nervous system doing its job, keeping you safe the only way it knows how. And Internal Family Systems calls the part of you that performs and pleases a protector, one that has been guarding a more vulnerable, authentic Self underneath.

The journey of self-expression is one of discovery, and a thrilling one at that. Dare I say, it can even be fun. When the body responds to being seen with the warning call, 'Danger!', we help soothe the nervous system and take baby steps, together, into the world, as the magical, beautiful You.

Play & Joy

I can fully let go. Play can only happen when the nervous system registers genuine safety. And, at the same time, the act of play is medicine for the body. When we play, we build nervous system regulation and flexibility. But attachment and relational wounds aren’t the only ways the freedom of play is stolen from us. Adulthood, too, is a thief of joy. We are taught that whimsy and magic are only for children, weaknesses we must outgrow.

But Jung wrote about the child archetype, representing spontaneity, wonder, and potential, as something that needs to be integrated, not outgrown. Active imagination, one of his core techniques, treats fantasy and symbol as a legitimate path to healing, not escapism.

Research on post-traumatic growth, on play, on creativity, and on embodied pleasure, all points to the same thing: a life you actually relish is not an indulgence. It is a necessity. Through the rite of play and joy, we practice what safety actually feels like in the body, not just what it means in theory. Because laughter isn’t earned and delight doesn't have to be justified.

Do these rites call to you? If so, I have a lantern ready.

- Kathleen